Because I Do Not Want to Be Complicit
By Khadijah Z. Ali-Coleman
I write this poem
will disappear soon,
and this poem will be
my paper trail,
my public dissent,
my scream
and shout
pushing incessantly
through my stapled lips
I write this poem
as I watch the soaking
of my tax dollars
in the blood of
humans fleeing for their lives
because of decade-long lies
of fabricated entitlement and
xenophobic indoctrination
and because my arms
are not long enough,
my voice is not strong enough
to catch a bomb and
toss it back to sender. I cannot
swallow a vulgar sniper’s bullet,
nor toss aside a grim reaper wearing
helicopters from strings that hover and drop death,
I write this poem
wearing skin and muscle,
nerves that sometimes stop working.
Useless tears
that cannot even send water.
I write this poem
with hopelessness that feels stiff
and jagged, a useless shank
that cannot find the artery
that keeps giving life to an uneven deadening.
A war with only one side
with weapons. Only one side with honor.
With morals and courage
even when there is no food
nor shelter from a falling sky.
I write this poem
to an immoral war, a treacherous
massacre that is funded by
my helplessness, mocking
my paralyzed intention each day as it slaughters children without pause.
I write this poem
as it laminates October 7th
as a death date, circles it on its calendar,
chugging its beer, sliding stolen olives
down its gluttonous throat,
designing its future that will stand
on the graves of martyrs, sleeping in
beachfront settlements built on
pristine sands as bodies are swept away
trying to make us forget again where the demons dwell.
I write this poem
blinded by fury, unable to see
through the smoke. Trying to see
if there is a future
and wonder where in it I will stand.
The world has watched death before,
seen the very end of days
for George, Sonya and Oscar. Heard it come for Trayvon.
Saw the bombs drop on 6221 Osage Avenue.
And, there were no poems to save them.
No words to drape over the flowing blood
and bodies of murdered children
and youth who did not realize
their morning smile would be their last.
No poems to scream at Black folk
to remind us that Palestine is our mirror,
a forecast of our later,
a dusting of our now,
a barometer of our yesterday.
I write this poem to acknowledge that.
I write this poem
to acknowledge that my solidarity
lies in the trauma and disrupted nervous system
that knows no rest.
Has received no apology.
I write this poem
as another casualty
on the other side of the world
who has not chosen death
but is forced every day to be complicit in its making.
Khadijah Z. Ali-Coleman is a visionary leader and community organizer, nationally recognized speaker, and writer. A playwright, she has had more than a dozen of her plays presented publicly in venues throughout the country, including the John F. Kennedy Center for the Performing Arts, Theater Alliance, and Baltimore Theater Project. Dr. Ali-Coleman is the author of the poetry collections For the Girls Who Do Too Much (2024) and The Summoning of Black Joy (2023), the children’s book Mariah’s Maracas and co-editor of the book Homeschooling Black Children in the US: Theory, Practice, and Popular Culture. Her work is featured in multiple publications, including Clarion, The Skinny Journal, two volumes of the book anthology The Fire Inside: Collected Stories and Poems from Zora’s Den, and the academic text Afro-Futurism in Black Panther: Gender, Identity, and the Remaking of Blackness (Rowan & Littlefield, 2021). Dr. Ali-Coleman is a professional member of The Dramatists Guild, The Recording Academy, and the Association of African American Museums. Dr. Ali-Coleman has received numerous grants and fellowships for her writing, performance, and teaching, including awards from the Maryland State Arts Council, PGCC Foundation, NVCC, and Poets & Writers. She is a recipient of a 2024 and 2025 Prince George's Arts and Humanities Council Artist Fellowship. In addition, she was selected as a 2024 Outstanding UMBC Alumni and 2023 Watering Hole Poetry Fellow, becoming the 3rd recipient of the Tribe Sankofa full scholarship in 2024. An associate professor in the Humanities department at Coppin State University, she is the current poet laureate of Prince George's County, MD.